Week 19 struggles

Reading scrolls always helps us to understand what this course is really about, however even I have difficulty doing the tasks at times. Am I suppose to? I realize this is not homework but at the same time I am absorbing everything as much as I can and it does not always work. Probably I am not suppose to understand as much right now. Down the road I will probably understand, it is like going to the gym. I hate it sometimes, I am tired as a dog, but during my time at the gym I have become stronger. Also during my time in the Master Key, I have gotten stronger mentally, I have been overwhelmed at times though, even at the gym.

I think some things you do not truly understand until some time after and I guess that is okay.